I think today is a work day. It's a Thursday and I don't remember anyone saying it was a holiday. But here it is nearly 7:30 already and the lights are still out, the door has not opened, and there is silence. I love it. It's partly quiet because one director, who drags her noisy oxygen tank in with her every day, is apparently off today. She was yesterday too. I'm sorry to say I don't miss her when she doesn't come in - she sits close by me and all day long listening to her cough and listening to the machine drone on and one sometimes gets very depressing and wearing. It is what it is. I didn't even turn on the overhead lights when I came in this morning about 45 minutes ago - I'm enjoying the dark, quiet of the morning. It will soon stop for others will start coming in about any time now.
About 30 days ago I issued a challenge of giving 3 compliments a day out. How is that working for you? I must admit that I have failed. But I don't give up. When a compliment is due, I give it easily enough. Trying to search for a compliment is sometimes harder. And sometimes you feel foolish if you give the same compliment every day - "gee, you look nice today" (don't they always?) or "I like the way you do your hair" (Isn't is always looking nice; the style hasn't changed?) I try to give compliments, but must admit that sometimes I fail.
It has been a busy few days thus far. I'm on the end side of this sinus infection, I'm hoping. I still have the cough, and the drainage, but hopefully it will go away soon. It has been very wearing on me. I stayed home from class again last night. Actually I just dropped out. It is a six weeks claass and I have now missed two weeks, and will miss next week as a granddaughter has a choir concert. I am reading the book and am doing the homework assignments, and I can learn that way as well, at my own pace too.
One of my former coworkers is back in the office today (thank goodness!) after a few days off. I've helped do some of her work - and I think I was given more than needed to be done, but just did what I was told. It wasn't hard, just distracting and I had to fit it in with my regular things. Tomorrow is her birthday and I still don't have anything for her - I looked last weekend for a little something, but didn't see anything. Won't be able to stop tonight - will have to see what I have around the house, I guess. Yeah, I sometimes recycle. Candles are out; her cousin sells Gold Canyon and that's all she uses. She doesn't wear much jewelry. She really doesn't need anything, but is extremely grateful when you remember her. We have some good talks at times.
I still have perhaps 4 sets of minutes to complete; was able to get one done yesterday. No meetings today or tomorrow, but have four next week. Will need to get started on printing information out and getting packets put together. Problem is, they won't start sending me the information until the day before. Oh well. That's what happened to a meeting I had yesterday, I finished pulling it together about an hour before the meeting. Sad part is, most of the information I copy and put in packets gets thrown away right after the meeting.
The darkness is over and the quiet is gone - all in a matter of minutes. I hear noises and talking. People are in early today - what's up with that? I like to get in early so that I have time to pull my thoughts together, work on things that need to get done for the first meeting, - oh yeah, I still need to send out two reports which I do first thing.
I wonder what it would be like to truly retire and not have to ever think about not working again, but be able to volunteer as I want to? I think I got my "taste" the other year when I took the year off - and don't see it ever happening again. In another 10 years I expect I will be still coming to work and doing my job. And I'm grateful I can. Got to get these charge cards paid off somehow - or I will work until I die. oh wait, I probably will be doing that anyway!
What do you think of when you are in the quiet and darkness before the world arises? Do you feel alone? Do you "feel" the darkness, the quiet? Do you embrace it - or are you afraid of it? I know some people who hate being alone, dislike very much not having activity about them. Me, I embrace it. A good book and a soft chair - it doesn't get much better than that. :-)
Need to get to work - hope you have an awesome day!
Blessings!
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