Wow - things I could easily remember before, I seem to forget more easily now. I like to credit it to my being so busy. I've tried to eliminate some things from my life, so that I can gain some of it back. Perhaps the year I took off working spoiled me. I still say it was a gift from God, and I'm grateful I had that year, even though I had to go back to work. Not many people are allowed the opportunity to take a year off work - with pay. I believe God orchestrated it - just for me. And I'm grateful.
It may also be that I've gotten older. But it shouldn't be that reason. Just because one gets older does not mean, necessarily, that they will forget things, or get confused. It does happen at some point, obviously, but I'm too young for it to happen to. Yet. God's mercy for me sustains me.
For one thing, I have thought for a long time I was to speak at Pioneer Village on November 17. I obviously was confused, or just not paying close attention when the schedule arrived last March. I looked at the schedule this mornng, and lo and behold, I'm scheduled for the 10th! I've been praying for some time as to what God would want me to share with His people there. But I hadn't been really focused on what it may be. Now is the time that I do need to focus and get on this so that I can be prepared and ready when the 10th arrives.
Because I feel that my busyness has helped add to my confusion, I've started to wean things out of my life to free up my time. I dropped out of the "fun committee" here at work because getting away from my desk for the meetings was very difficult. I rarely could help with any of the activties. I did that last month. I had a State church meeting a couple weeks ago and have since prepared the minutes and have everything sent to the Executive Minister of the State, and my work is done there. And yet still ahead, I have a rehearsal and a wedding next week. Then the Extreme Block Party for church, at which I am volunteering. Then speaking at Pioneer Village. Then we are helping with a Community Outreach in Prescott Valley the Saturday before Thanksgiving. Then Thanksgiving is a couple weeks away. Shopping. Baking. Parties. Then Christmas. Whew. Where has this year gone?
My work days are consuming. I leave around 6AM and don't get home until 6PM. Then after dinner, it's either sit with hubby and watch TV, read, or ? Then to bed between 9-10PM. And the day starts over. When I was working before it seemed like I had so much more time to complete things. Now I feel constantly pressured and squashed. I don't get to spend time with my children and grandchildren like I want to. I don't usually get on the computer once I'm home unless I have a specific thing I simply must do. And that is all I'm going to say about that.
I was talking to God on my way in to work this morning, thanking Him for His faithfulness and goodness to me. He has seen me through a lot of trials. He has walked with me on journeys I really wanted to just give up and walk away. He has given me strength when I've faltered, wisdom when I didn't know what to do, abilities when I thought I couldn't do anything. He heals my broken heart, wipes away my tears, and restores what the enemy tries to take away. I know I am nothing without Him, and I can do nothing without Him in control of my life. I shudder to think what my life would be like if I did not have God to run to, to cry out to, to worship, to praise. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have Him to gather me into His arms and hold me when I hurt the most.
What about you? Has life been so busy for you that you have pushed God out of the picture? Do you feel alone, deserted? Empty? Do you have a life full of busyness but yet nothingness? Take some time to thank God for His faithfulness to you. Thank Him for your job. Your love. Your family. Your friends. Your church. Begin thinking positive things and praise God that you are alive and well. Even if you have sickness, praise Him, for He is your Healer. Just ask Him. He will heal you in ways you may not expect. It may not be your body, but perhaps your heart.
Take some time today to just tell Him, "I love you Abba." And pause to hear His response, "I love you too, child."
Blessings!
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