Hubby came home yesterday afternoon so I'm back in my routine here in the mornings. He is doing well, although we were cautioned to keep an eye on the 'puncture' wound in his abdomen, that if we should see blood on the bandage, for him to lie down and call 911. Why? Because the surgery was in an artery and if something should come lose, he could bleed out. I'm confident that all will go well; this isn't like a surgery that has never been done before. But, if one knows hubby, one knows that he is a 'worry wart' and fear is his biggest thing. He apparently did not sleep much last night as he asked as he brought in my coffee "did I keep you awake last night?". Oftentimes when he asks that question, I want to return the question with "No, why? Did you try to?" But I don't. I know it is just his way of telling me he didn't sleep well. And then he relies on his Fitbit to tell him 'how bad' he slept. Which drives me crazy. I tell him all the time the Fitbit may give him an idea if he slept bad - but when the numbers stay in the same area - it's possible that is your 'sleep number', even if it is less than 70. He bases his sleep too much on that number. I rarely look at my 'sleep number'. If I wake up tired and sleepy, I obviously didn't rest well. If I wake up rested, I slept good. For example, the other night, when I was alone, I didn't go to bed until around 10PM. I slept sound until 4AM when my alarm went off, and after I shut it off, I slept more until 5:30AM. I feel I slept well. Last night I woke up once - but then I drank a lot of water in the evening, so I had to get up. My alarm went off at 4AM; I noticed hubby had already gotten up (since he obviously wasn't sleeping), so I stayed in bed another 15 minutes or so just because I wanted to and didn't want to get up. Oh well. Bottom line, hubby is home, and all is well.
I'm back at work today. Reluctantly, I might add. I did get online yesterday morning before going to the hospital and cleared out messages, saw I had several meetings to create when back online this morning. I have several more messages that came through after I cleared out the others. Oh well. Part of the job, and I can do only what I can do. I'm at the point where I'd like to be laid off with a severance package. Sigh. Like that would happen. Not that I have anything to do here at home.... but I would like to take a less stressful part-time job and be able to do some things. Although I really don't see hubby letting me do what all I want to do. He does not like being left alone, he has this fear of dying and being alone. I get it; at his age, it can happen if he should fall or whatever.
Pretty much stuck to my Virta eating plan yesterday. Actually, I think I did stick to it. Bacon and eggs for breakfast. I didn't eat lunch as was at the hospital yesterday from 10AM until about 2PM before hubby got discharged. I didn't fix dinner until about 6PM as I had a workout at the gym at 5PM and didn't want to eat before I went. Air-fried chicken breast and cooked broccoli. I could have added another vegetable, but just wanted to get dinner over with. We usually eat between 4-5PM just because I 'want to get it over with' after working all day. If we go out with friends, it's usually 5:30-6:30PM that we meet them - and that's ok too. I just have to watch my carbs (and hubby, of course, says he is doing this with me, although I can't let him use my monitor nor scale as they are linked into the app for my coach to see) when I plan a meal or go out to eat. I am going to make this Plan work. I need to set an example for my children and eat right.
But, I love potato chips and the salt they provide. :-) I still eat a lot of dark chocolate (or I used to), and I can have a small piece of the very dark chocolate in those moments of 'stress' or 'desire' and it not affect the Plan. I love bread. Sigh. I still haven't made any... but I want to and will have to give it away. I found a couple recipes to make 'bread' for low-carb diets and may try it. One, believe it or not - is (I think) 1/2 cup parmesan cheese, 1 egg, and something else, can't remember. Anyway, you put it in a Dash waffle maker and cook until crispy. The book said to make several and put in the freezer - when going to a restaurant, order a burger without the bun, then use two of these as your 'bread'. Might be interesting to try. I don't often eat a lot of cheese, but I love dropping a tablespoon of cheese on the griddle and letting it melt and when it is 'done', it is crispy and oh so good.
The hardest part of all this Plan? Well, besides giving up my potato chips and bread, is allowing myself to eat some fats. Like using butter on things that I normally left off (or used sparingly) because of the fat content. I've been using real butter for years, even though it is more expensive than margarine. I sometimes use margarine for some cookies as the recipe requires vegetable oil, which is in margarine. Kerrygold is expensive, but overall, it is the best butter. I don't use it for baking but will use it for adding for flavor.
Since I should be limiting myself to 30 carbs a day, I have to watch how I use my Shakeology shakes - they contain 17 carbs in one scoop. But I can drink the Premier Protein shakes - which are actually very good - because they only have 3-4 carbs in them. They are great for a replacement meal or as a snack for they aren't large, but give you a sense of fullness. I'm determined I'm going to do this 'right'.
Ephesians 4:2 (NIV): Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
I know few people who I could see that verse in, and it is something I can strive for. Not that I feel I am a proud person, but I certainly know some people who are! And I'm sure you do as well. How can you tell a person is 'proud'? I'm not sure if this would be a definition, but I feel it is a lot about their attitude. If you offer the least amount of criticism about something they are involved in - oh my! - I know a couple people who really get angry and will either cut you off or ignore you for awhile. They think they are being 'righteous' in their anger, but it is really stupidity, in my opinion. No one is better than another person. We were all born the same way. We were all created the same - in the image of God. Therefore, we should be humble and kind, gentle, with each other. We never know what that one person may be going through - whether they think they are going through something or not.
Changing the subject, I got a text from my little sister last night asking if I missed her bugging me every day (she is now in Florida for a couple months). For one, we don't talk every day nor text every day all the time. We sometimes go a week or more without chatting. Especially when she is angry with me - it could be six months! So I honestly replied that no, I hadn't missed anything as I had been busy with hubby. Mentioned his surgery. She knew about it, but had forgotten, and since it was done and over with and he was ok, it was on to how much she was enjoying the sunshine and 77 degrees in Florida. They are staying with a cousin of her husband's until February 1 when they will get their own place for two months. Glad she is enjoying her 'vacation'. And no, I'm not jealous.
I want to jump in the shower yet this morning so will close this off. Hope that you have a fun-filled and amazing day.
Blessings!
