I just got up. Yes, I turned my alarm off... and I have dozed - and dreamed - and I wanted to get on here real quick before I forgot.... but now I've had some wonderful distractions too. I had just gotten the first few words typed out when my bedroom door opens and our great-granddaughter pops in with a 'Hi Oma!'. Climbing in to my lap in front of the computer she gets my undivided attention - afterall, I hadn't really started to type anything yet. This is what I get for allowing myself to sleep in and not get up like I should! After chatting with her a few minutes, she wanted to wake grandma up and off she went. But, we got her out - and here I sit, in the front room with my computer, watching Madagascar with the little one while mama gets dressed. And this is one of the things that warms my heart.
My dream...one was really weird - I got a call from a friend whom I haven't seen for a few years and she needed me. So hubby and I went over and she was sitting at her table crying. Her husband, and children were small (and I met only one who is grown and married, but I've heard about them for years). I never figured out what she was crying about, but as I turned to leave, she asked if I had any eggs. I remembered I had just bought 18 eggs so told her yes, and she asked for some. Ok. Now this is where it gets weird. We lived two blocks away...in a big building, and between us was a huge building, like a monument of something, and in front of the building they had these big bowls around things. Well, a wind storm came up before we left and blew the bowls apart. But we went anyway.
See, these dreams are weird. When we came home, I got up, put on my workout clothes and started riding my bike (which I don't have) to the gym. I get a block away and find I don't have socks on - so of course I decided I couldn't go to the gym without socks, so turned around and rode back home and kept trying to call our trainer but couldn't get ahold of him.
Then the dream went to this friend knocking at my door, asking for the eggs. I go to the egg container and the eggs are in different shapes. Like they were little molded figures, dogs, people, etc. So I pickup about a dozen of them to give her because they are so much smaller and in weird shapes. Then that scene disappears and...
I'm having a party for my mother to cheer her up. Friends that I know have passed away were there. We had all kinds of flowers and cakes everywhere. Some kid comes in and starts taking some things out and I am in the kitchen area when he comes out with this big blue medal 'thing' - I have no idea of what it is - and I get mad at him and tell him he can't have it! It had belonged to my mother and he wasn't getting it - but I lied to him and told him it was mine, to keep him from taking it. That scene disappeared and something had happened in the other room and guests were leaving and things were thrown on the floor. Mother was leaving too, and said, "That was the best party I have been too in a long while". And as I pick up the party treats that were laying on the floor, I was filled with the overwhelming pain of missing my mother, and I was sobbing.
And then I woke up. Could it have been the left-over piece of pizza I ate for dinner before going to bed? The only part that could be true is that I do miss my mother. Many times I will see her face, and sometimes I will even talk with her. I don't know if any of us kids were her 'favorite', I really think we all were, because she had a special bond with each one of us that should would never want to change. I know she talked about me to the others when they visited, just as she talked about them to me. Only difference is, only one person like to share the negative things that was shared.... what had been told and imagined.
Perhaps that is why I do not have favorites among my children, my grandchildren, nor my great grandchildren. I love each one differently. I have a special bond (in my mind, anyway), with each one. Nothing can change that love I have for each one. I may throw up my hands in exasperation at times, but I still love them completely.
And, enough of my dreams. This blog will be odd, or weird, I'm sure... what with dreams and all, so I think I've told it all. And I still miss my mama this morning. That part I definitely remember. And the funny looking eggs.
My daughter just came in and shared a dream she had.... she won $60 billion dollars at a casino playing a game she didn't know. So I shared my dream.... she asked me a question.... "Mom, are you seeing a therapist?"
My title reminds me of something that happened the other day.... it was funny.... my daughter had complained about 'stupid drivers' - this town has numerous circles to drive around to slow traffic down (can't think what they are called, but you know what I'm talking about).... and she commented "I see stupid people". Later the great granddaughter was looking out the window and says, "I see trees"... and I added "and grandma sees stupid people".... and I cracked up as did my daughter - the granddaughter just shook her head. But I thought it was hilarious!
And with that - I need to get up and get dressed and start packing my things up. We need to be out of here by 10AM I think and we need to make sure we have all the toys. So with that - I'll say I hope you don't have my type of weird dreams... and if you can figure out what it all means, please give me your opinion of what you think it all means. We all need a laugh.
Heading home today - have a 5PM training at the gym. Can't wait to tell him about that part of the dream. He will laugh. I hope I can survive the workout - and I'll make sure I'm wearing socks - but I am NOT riding a bike there!
Blessings!
