I've already written a long post tonight but have saved it in draft form for I am frustrated and angry at some things. I voiced them in that post. But that isn't what I want you to read. This will be short as I'm writing this the night before (Tuesday night) and I probably won't have time to write in the morning.
The funeral is finally scheduled for 10AM tomorrow morning. Please pray for me as I am doing the service. But also, please pray for me that my sister will quit telling me what SHE wants me to say. She didn't like the scripture I was lead to share. She wants the Lord's Prayer at the end of the service. She wants this and she wants that. I'm not changing the scripture. I'm not having everyone say the Lord's Prayer at the end of the service (when did that get to be done at funerals anyway?) and I'm not changing what I have written because she wants me to.
It has been a tough day. Remember my talking about fish smelling after 4 days? Well, we've reached the limit and I'm more than ready to go home. We head back tomorrow night, getting in via Denver around 11PM.
I will explain more next time I post, perhaps. Things may or may not happen. Whether or not our nephew comes to tell his mother goodbye is a big issue. I say he can, she doesn't want him there. Yeah, my sister and I are feuding about this - and other things. I'm tired of the jabbing emails and comments. I want to go home.
So for now, please pray for peace for our family. I'm holding my tongue. I don't want to fight with my sister. She is more than ready for that battle and I'm not going to give it to her. She is jealous of my relationship with my siblings, with this sister who died, with my daughter. She has even commented how lucky I am to have a daughter who came with me and is making sure I am taken care of. I am more than grateful she is taking care of things I wouldn't think about. She has taken me everywhere I wanted to go and then some. And she hasn't complained, but did it joyfully.
Pray for the service, that it will go well. Pray that if the nephew does come to the service, he won't disrupt it. Pray that my daughter and I can come home without complications and conflicts. Pray I won't get in an argument with my sister. Help me hold my tongue.
Much appreciated. Until I have a chance to write again.......... please pray for peace.
