As I lamented about my blood test results yesterday, my son reminded me of truth. And for that I am grateful. I'm not worried; I'm not even thinking about it anymore. And my big brother did some research for me and found that my 4.9 is 'mild', not high risk. I guess it just depends on who is interpreting the results, right? His research also showed that my complaint about it being caused by the scorpion bites I got 3-4 years ago (I think it was 3 year but not sure) is not the cause of it. Which is interesting, because the leg pain all started after the bites. I think there were 15 bites/stings. I have photos I took along the way. Anyway - there were other possible causes and I ruled out several. There were a couple I could possibly agree with. Stress. Definitely was one. I don't remember the others right now - and besides that - it isn't important. I've surprisingly have learned, with taking Advil for my shoulder pain.... me, who doesn't like to take medication at all, had to take an Advil..... I slept through the night and did not awaken during the night with the severe leg pain. And I recall reading in the articles that Nsaid or aspirin can reduce inflammation. Imagine that.. My brother and I also discussed my use of Fosamax. Actually, being forced to take it. They (the doctors) make you take it for 5 years, then switch you to Reclast, which is an infusion for the bones, and after a couple years on that, switch you to Prolia. I don't want any of it. I have argued against the Fosamax all these years I've taken it. But once started, Dr. Mark (although he did not start it, nor do I think he would have) one has to keep taking it. I'm reconsidering this one. I have had some sort of leg pain since I started taking Fosamax. Usually it lasted three days in the beginning. Could that have been the start of all this? Something to consider........ right? Ok - enough on this subject! Moving on!
I have a confession. I have not 'allowed' hubby to drive my current car - ever. You may think that is rude and mean, but if you know my situation, you may be able to understand it a bit more. Every single car I have had since being married, also becomes 'his'. By that I mean, he has his own car - which, by the way, I have never ever been 'allowed' to drive ANY of his cars the past 44 years.... but he always likes mine better so when we would go somewhere, my car would be the one taken - and if I had let him drive it, it became the car he drove whenever we went anywhere. And he is not as careful with my car as he is with his. Years ago we parked on opposite sides of the garage, me on the left, he on the right. My car at that time, which was newer than his, started having chip marks in a row on the passenger side. I honestly did not figure it out; the kids did. He would open his car door, hit it against my car and get in or out of it. After all, it was MY car. Heaven forbid if I should do that to HIS car! He would yell at me if I touched the black at the top of the car when getting out, stating I would cause it to fade over time. Yeah, he believed that. I'm not putting hubby down, and I'm leading up to a point.
My point? My granddaughter called last night and is had to put her car in shop for today. She asked if she could borrow my car to take the great-granddaughter to a couple classes she is scheduled for. I'm not using my car today; I don't have any place to go, after all, I'm working. I told her yes. FIRST TIME EVER I dared to loan my car to anyone without checking with hubby - and incidentally, have NEVER loaned either of our cars to anyone. Oh I take that back, one time my sister & hubby was out here and they got to use it one day. Anyway.... I came home from Ms. Vicky's - which is where I was when I got the call and said yes, and told hubby I was letting the granddaughter borrow my car today. His immediate comment? "You trust her to drive your car and you don't trust me?" I never bothered to respond; I just walked away like I hadn't heard his comment. If he had pursued, I would have told him why - I can't trust him to let my car remain mine, and he doesn't let me drive his car so what is the difference? Anyway - he can just get over it. Right? :-)
Wow - I've dumped all over the place this morning, haven't I! Not putting anyone down, not doing anything... just sharing part of my life. :-) And if you are reading in here, you want to know my life, right? LOL Do I apologize here?
Morgan killed my core yesterday and my belly is telling me so. She also had me use that shoulder and it's sore - which is why I took the Advil last night. If I take a pill for pain, you know it's bad... just saying.
Dang - I got busy and forgot about finishing this! Well, you know that eventually I will get to it, right? I'm waiting on the granddaughter to pick up my car, I have eggs ole in the oven because it just sounds good this morning, and I have already washed one load of clothes. That's actually all the laundry I'm doing today. Hubby will be here around 10-ish I think. ..... I'm in a 'not work today' mood. What's up with that? I heard some people were 'given permission' to take off at noon today for the holiday weekend. I'm not going anywhere. I have no 'bosses' to speak of right now... even though I still support three people.... I'm technically 'off' anyway, right? LOL I do what I want to do when I can do it. I just don't want/can't do when hubby is home.
My son sent me an interesting 'tidbit' this morning - "You are not waiting for the right time, you are simply afraid. Fear is keeping you from your dream life. Saying you are just waiting for the right time is just an excuse." And I know that it is true for me. I'm afraid of the disagreement; I'm afraid of trying to do something for me without sustaining the value of someone else (you know what I'm saying). Jealousy/envy, even when recognized, is still an ugly thing. Insecurity in who you are is also an ugly thing and it affects those around you in more ways than one. I've not been hired at things I dearly wanted to do because of someone else's lack of recognition or fear. I've not been able to take classes I wanted to take because someone else insisted they do it as well 'with me'... so we can do it together.... and the cost was too high for two and I had to cancel. I've sacrificed and gave up many, many things, only to be held back from so many things. And now I don't have much of the fight within me.... unless it comes to my children, grandchildren, great grandchildren. You want a fight about them? Bring it on!
Psalm 145:1 (ESV): I will exalt you, my God the King; I will praise your name for ever and ever.
All praise, honor and glory belong only to God. He is our Deliverer, our Shelter, our 'Nail in a sure place'. I love that name for Him - 'Nail in a sure place'. He is secure. He won't let me fall. He won't let me down. I can hang on Him and be secure. Good place to be, right?
And with that - gotta get off ere and get busy. Have an amazing day and bring joy to someone today. I've heard a tidbit from my son - that's my joy.
Blessings!
