Where do I start?

 I woke up about 3:50AM this morning and instead of turning over and trying to sleep for 10 more minutes, I got up and came in to my room.  I decided not to turn the light on (hubby was still asleep in bed) and just sit here with my eyes closed.  Me and God.  Just thinking.  Listening to the quiet.  Soon I heard hubby get up so the light came on and I grabbed my Bible, looking at the clock.  Thinking it was maybe ten minutes I sat here in the dark, thinking, I was surprised when I saw it was 4:40AM.  Did I fall back to sleep?  I don't know.  Don't feel like I did.  But I did enjoy the time of being quiet and just sitting here in the dark and in solitude with Jesus.  There is just something about being alone with Jesus that can bring peace to the soul.  

So glad it is Friday and this work week is nearly over.  It's been a busy week, as you know.  Yesterday was extremely busy as well with everything I was trying to get accomplished.  Didn't get everything done, and at 4PM I shut my computer off.  Mentally, I was 'done'.  I checked last night and I have 20 messages for sure to go through this morning, before I even start!  Of course that is because I get off at 4PM and the bosses work until at least 5PM.  It's tough being a 'boss'....  one of my bosses is on at 6AM most mornings and she is still on when I get off.  BUT, she does take time mid-morning to go for a walk or to break away, and Friday afternoons I have her blocked from 1PM on - sometimes she may have a meeting or two, but it allows her to complete what tasks she needs to do or just relax and do other things, checking the computer for anything she needs to give her attention to.  All her kids are grown and on their own so she doesn't have to take care of them - although some afternoons when she can, she does babysit, just checking the computer for work.

My other boss usually doesn't get online until around 8AM and he often is back to back meetings throughout the entire day, and sometimes even has evening meetings; not all which he goes to, and many are online so it isn't so bad.  But he does have 4 small children under the age of 10 and helps his wife with them.  I don't think she works so he helps her a lot before work and of course, after.  He's also involved with the Mormon church so has his responsibilities there.  But he is a nice boss and very smart.  I got to see him when I made the trip to Mesa the other day.  

So where was I going with all this?  I have no clue, I started out I was glad the week was nearly over - work wise, anyway.  Hubby and I still haven't talked about tomorrow and if we will be going to help Teen Challenge.  It doesn't start until around 11AM, I think.  I am pretty sure he has forgotten all about it; when it's something he doesn't want to do, he pushes it out of his mind.  I'm just the opposite, I think.  When I don't want to do it, it's all I can think about because I want to have an honest excuse, and thus far I haven't come up with one.  Cooking for my disabled neighbors is good... but I don't know that is a valid excuse.   LOL  Just checked my phone to reread the message about it, and one of the people in our group has is asking do we sign up or just show up.  No response yet to his question.  They did also ask for donations for the pizza.... and I know with Teen Challenge running it, they do have a lot of help.. I could help with the pizza cost, right? And do my own service project in my own community.  

Which makes me think.... my daughter and her hubby go to a Bible study group with their church on Thursday evenings.  Last night she text'd me that she wanted my recipe for peach cobbler as she is going to make it for next week's group.  That's just how God works, you know?  I had actually been thinking earlier in the day about making peach cobbler this weekend - and trying to make it using my diabetic sugar and see how it tastes.  Plus I was thinking of a couple other ways to make it.  I think I will experiment this weekend with peach cobbler and make some myself.  My neighbor across the street is an insulin dependent diabetic, so it would be nice to give her something sweet that she can eat versus her grabbing some candy.  Anyone else interested? :-)  I always get excited about baking and it isn't any different just sitting here thinking about it!  Think I will go to Smart & Final and get a big can of peaches... don't know if Sam's Club will have it or not.  Costco is way too busy on the weekends and I can't stand all the people around me constantly.  Especially when I don't know what I want and have to look!  Sam's Club I have the 'scan and go' and I love it.  Get what I want, scan it, and don't have to stand in line!  I know what my cost is and when I swipe the total - boom, it's paid for!  It will be fun to experiment this weekend with the different ways to make it.  I even found a peanut butter cookie recipe last night that I'm anxious to try this weekend to make.  I'll use regular peanut butter, although it calls for no sugar added.... but I'll use my splenda for baking and see how they turn out.  Yum.  I hope.

Luke 10:38-42 (NKJV):  "Now it happened as they went that He entered a certain village; and a certain woman named Martha welcomed Him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who also sat at Jesus' feet and heard His word. But Martha was distracted with much serving, and she approached Him and said, "Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Therefore tell her to help me."

And Jesus answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and troubled about many things. But one thing is needed, and Mary has chosen that good part, which will not be taken away from her."

Hmmm... as I read that scripture over and think about tomorrow... I could apply it, don't you think?  Or am I overreaching?  Let me tell you my thoughts.

I've always been a 'Mary'.  My little sister has always been a 'Martha'.  There have been times I went to Indiana and didn't help with something and instead took a short walk to be alone with God and sort out my thoughts (being with family, some times this is a good thing), and when I come back, she would get all over me about leaving her to do the cooking and not there to help.  I still feel she didn't need me to stand there and stir the gravy (that's all I was asked to do).  She didn't like it when I referred to this story and said she was Martha.  Nope, she didn't like that at all!

But in thinking about tomorrow, and this story, I could apply it, perhaps.  The homeless will always be with us.  They have a group of people already serving them tomorrow.  I have always wanted to serve in my community, where I live.  Cooking for my neighbors and serving them seems to be AS important as driving down to the Van Buren area to serve pizza to the homeless.  Or am I stretching it here?  And, I do sit down with my neighbors and hear their stories.  I'm limited on time, either way, I'm building relationships in my community; or leave my community and serve the homeless one day.  But it's the group thing that is hanging on me.  Nothing more has been said about it since Monday.  We will now as one of the young men in our group sent the question last night how to 'sign up' to help - just get there or call the person that they will be there.  Waiting for the response from the person who shared this information.  I'm leaning towards donating money to help buy the pizzas.  Someone has to pay for it, right?  The more pizzas the more people they can serve.  Stay tuned on this one.  I've served the homeless in the past with other groups.  I've made sandwiches and passed them out one on one.  I've served at the food kitchens.  I've done all that over the years.  I'm not afraid of working with the homeless.  But there are other people who need help too.  Decisions, decisions!  

Ok, guess I have rambled on enough about all that.  With all my ramblings... it did give you something to 'skim' over, right?  Some days I do have some good stuff... but you can see where my mind is today.  Before I turn on the work computer, anyway.  Hope it won't be a busy day... I have things I need to get done.  Oh - I did get invited down to Mesa again TODAY for a team meeting and lunch.  The leader is fixing tri-tip.  I told him thanks, but no thanks.  A 94 mile round trip for lunch (with people I don't even know) isn't on my agenda for today.  And I've been invited to another one next month down in Mesa - but I know people in that group.  I just can't see driving there for only lunch.  I think I'll pass.

And with that, I'm shutting up!  Hope that you have an amazing day!

Blessings!