and sometimes there is nothing like it. Hubby got to come home yesterday from the hospital and is doing very well, I think. No pain and is seeming to move about quite freely. The human body is interesting, for sure. It will be interesting to see if he has any pain today as all the numbness should be wearing off. It was a crazy unusual busy day yesterday. I tried to work, but took off about 11:30AM to go to the hospital. I was needing to get away from the computer. I walked in his room to find out he had been discharged, so turned around and went to get the car. But I had a stop first. I smelled fresh coffee when I walked into the lobby to leave.... Starbucks was there. So stood in line to get a cup for hubby and I. He was downstairs before I got the coffee, but waiting (not that there was a choice) until I got outside, got the car, and pulled up front. Had a couple stops on the way home - prescription and of course lunch! Did a quick run-through at Taco Bell - believe it or not! Once back home, he went to his computer and I went back to mine - only mine was to work. Had a lot to do yesterday and still do today. I had to make another run back to the hospital in the afternoon; he got a telephone call... he left his hearing aid box and one hearing aid mixed in the sheets of his bed. So back we went.
I don't know about hubby, but I slept good last night for the most part. I didn't want to get up this morning, that's for sure. I am really longing for a few days away somewhere, but right now it isn't possible. I just need to get away, but to where I can be alone, and just be with God. Some days one just needs Him to set the world right and let the clutter of life get out of the picture. I'm tired; so very tired, and I see nothing in the near future that can help. Oh yeah - we do need to get starting planning our Jailbreak Getaway this year.
"All my life You have been faithful, All my life You have been good, so good! With every breath that I am able, I will sing of the goodness of God."
That song has been going through my mind this morning. Have you ever stopped to think about how good God is? Even when you choose not to accept Him or His ways, He is good to you. He answers the prayers of others for you, even when you don't acknowledge it. He even answers your prayers, although they may be only thoughts, or hopes or even dreams, for you. Heaven forbid that you would pray for something! Just kidding - our prayers are that you WOULD seek God for something!
This year is truly a year of things going on. A granddaughter gets married, and we have not one, but two (that we are aware of) great-grandbabies on the way from another granddaughter and a fiancee of a grandson. I love babies, but my heart breaks for these two because of the circumstances. Both have such a hard life ahead of them. I know I've touched on 'babies having babies' before. I can't even help much which is very difficult. I pray for both, that they will realize that they have a treasured life inside of them growing, and that they will love this baby and care for it as a parent should. It won't be a 'flour baby' as they used to give at high school. This one will be real, and it pees and poops and wants a bottle, and wants to be loved. I pray they will give it all it needs. And ask for help when they can't.
A granddaughter has posted her wedding photos on facebook.... I just happened to see the popup link when I signed on the computer this morning, so took a quick look through them. The wedding was beautiful and the photos reflect that. I'm sure there are more photos, but these look great. It was a joyful occasion, for sure.
I wonder, as we look through the photos of our lives - as far back as we can remember - what do we see? Do we see all the joyful, beautiful times of life, laughter, and love? Or do we just remember the bad and difficult and painful times? I've tried to push the dark times away and have pretty much succeeded, I think. I can't change the past, but how I deal with the future, is a result of that past. But I choose not to allow the past to continue to live. It's done. I can't change it. I can just work on making the future better.
I've made a lot of mistakes over the years. There are some years that I'd like to erase completely. But it is in those years that I grew. And so do you. We all have painful stuff in our past that we'd like to get rid of - all we want to remember is the joyful and happy times. And we do need to hang on to those. Sometimes those thoughts are what sustain us.
One thing for sure - in all my years, even before I truly KNEW Jesus, He was faithful to me. That song still resonates: "Jesus loves me this I know, for the Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, They are weak, but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me. Yes, Jesus loves me, the Bible tells me so." I love Chris Tomlin's song "He loves me".
Sing it a few times in your head this morning.... reflect on it, and His faithfulness to you all these years. You may not acknowledge Him, but He's there. Why? Because others have prayed for you. Not just your mama, but your spouse, your children, your friends. Jesus is there, and He's waiting for you to sit down and talk with Him. Will you?
Blessings!
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