It feels awkward...

not having to rush around this morning and get ready for work. Yes, I took the day off because I have a doctor's appointment this morning. Not sure what I am seeing him for; I think it is to discuss the results of my tests three months ago.... I've moved the appointment a couple times, I think. Those tests are 'old' and he will probably want to do them all over again! Oh well. I wish he could heal broken hearts as easily as broken bodies.

But I do know who CAN heal a broken heart, and that is Jesus. He loves me no matter what the world thinks or what goes on in my life. He loves me. Bottom line. No if, ands, or buts. He loves me. And I can 'take that to the bank'. Which He owns, by the way.

I slept a little longer this morning, stayed in my room longer, and just being lazy as I get my day started. I don't need to leave for another hour, but guess I should start getting ready.

I did a Life Line Screening last month. It was quick and easy - and they send you the test results within 3 weeks unless there is something critical, and they tell you that day. I didn't get told anything so nothing was critical, but I'm disappointed I haven't received my information yet. I had hoped to take to the doctor with me today. I started to email Life Line Screening and ask them where my information is, then I looked to see when I had actually gone to have it done. May 30th. Today is June 21. I guess I can cut them a little slack. Yes, it is a couple days past the 'within 3 weeks' statement, but anything could happen. If I don't hear within another week, then I will contact them. I double-checked my emails this morning in case it was emailed - but it was not.

This is my second visit to this new doctor. I hope we can build a good relationship - albeit only seeing him once every few months - if that. I was seeing my 'old' doctor most years only one time a year. Then he decided I needed to come in more often - not that I was having any problems. He's getting ready to retire so maybe he needed more money cause there was nothing wrong with me.

I'm doing better today, in spite of my hubby having 'his' talk with me last night. I felt pretty beaten up and bruised by the time he got done. Am I really so bad? I cannot dwell on it. I must do what I think is the right thing to do. Yes, I probably do need to watch my expressions of rolling my eyes and as it was put to me 'dirty looks' when I disagree. sigh. Life is hard.

But I'm grateful God is my Lord and I can run to Him day and night to help me. Father, please cover me with Your Grace, that You give so freely. I need Grace today, Lord. Help me walk in the path You have for me, and not make my own path. I love you, Lord.

Blessings!