when there is so much going on? When my emotions run high and low. When I find myself mellow and yet, ok. It has been a "moody" weekend, to say the least.
We went to a deployment ceremony on Saturday. Yeah, our youngest son is once again leaving us for awhile. His wife was there, of course, and we arrived, as well as his sister and hubby and son. We watched the ceremony being rehearsed, and then the final. It was a beautiful day, sunny, yet cloudy. Warm, yet a cool breeze would occasionally come through. The ceremony was outside with a General and a Colonel speaking. I forget who else spoke. My favorite was the last speaker. He said he had a speech but wasn't going to give it. Just wished them luck. Two minutes max. Nice.
Good thing, too. Four of the soldiers collapsed during the ceremony and had to be escorted from the field to hydrate and cool off, I'm guessing. But, they had stood out there nearly an hour and a half to two hours, I'm guessing. We got to sit on bleachers so it wasn't bad. The ceremony was interesting. Afterwards we all went to lunch and for a change, I got to sit across my from son so that I could talk with him. It was quiet talk. I reminded him that we never got that 1:1 that I had asked for before he left.
Yesterday we took our son and his wife to the airport and sat with him for about 3 hours before he could board his flight. It was casual talk, and coffee. Well, I had my green tea. After he boarded the plane, we left and his wife took us to lunch, then we all went home.
I'm speaking at the two RV parks over the next three weeks so I got to spend the afternoon working on my message for this Sunday. I need to get a new computer, I think. I'm thinking about a desktop this time - but I am not sure. I have so much difficulty with the printer I have - it keeps going offline and I can't figure out how to get it online. I messed with it for over an hour yesterday - then tried hubby's printer and it wouldn't connect with it either. I finally emailed the message to my office email and I printed it out here this morning. Now I can work on it and see what I need to change. At least with speaking at one place this Sunday and another the next Sunday I can use the same message - but Easter Sunday I need to have a new one so that will be my focus once this one is completed.
In the afternoon yesterday I received information that a former brother-in-law had had a heart attack and stroke. Memories flooded my mind, good memories. Some people just can't understand how my memories of some things can be good. Perhaps it is because I choose to not focus on the bad and choose to focus on the good of it. My heart breaks for the family, and for my children. This has always been a tough time for them - and reading a daughter-in-law's post from last night, I had forgotten her father had passed at this time - it is tough for her as well. So many things to pull memories, good and bad. I hate it that my children hurt. And all I can do is pray. And yes, I pray also for my former brother-in-law. I've prayed not only for a miracle that he should live, but that he could go home soon. I haven't heard anything so don't know how God will answer all the prayers prayed by many on his behalf. I imagine they would be surprised to know I prayed for him. But why shouldn't I pray? I am sad he is at death's door.
I still believe that God answers prayers. That He still hears my specific prayers and answers. That with combined prayers, He will respond. I have prayed many prayers at which there has been no response. At least none that I've seen. But God answers in His way, and in His own timing. I've learned to pray and wait. And be patient. Which is a lot harder.
My oldest son asked me to lunch next Saturday. Just me. I'm excited to spend some 1:1 time with him. We rarely have time alone together so that I can hear what he has been doing, what is going on in his life, what is he feeling, etc. I rarely see him because our schedules and priorities are sometimes different. And that's ok. That's why these 1:1 sessions are so important to me. I'm looking forward to it.
My daughter, granddaughter and I are actually going to get away for a "girls weekday outing" soon. Just a Sunday afternoon to Tuesday afternoon running away time, but it will be fun and I truly pray we make lots of good memories. Who knows if we will ever be able to do this again. I've begged for it for three years - and finally - we can get away. I will have to work on a weekend where hubby and I can get away.....
So my emotions have been up and down this weekend. Today I'm doing well. Work keeps me very busy. Praying for others is also keeping me busy as it is unceasing to cover those who need a special touch.
I'm just rambling... but I know that God is in all of this. His promises are true. One thing I have learned over the years is that His promises are my armor and protection. He covers me with his feathers, He shelters me with His wings. His promises are my armor and protection. And they also are yours.
Blessings!
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