For me, weekends are a time of relaxation after a week of work. A time when I can do nothing, if I so choose. Or I can do road trips. Or I can go to something and be with friends. Or I can.... whatever I want. And sometimes, I don't want. Sigh. Hubby has been pushing for a drive up to Prescott today. For what? "Just to get out of town." Well, I'd be all over it if he had said Tucson.... but he didn't. Now, I love Prescott, and we have spent many, many weekends up there over the years.... but I just am not in the mood to go up to Prescott today. He asked me again last night if we were going to go and I was honest with him. I told him no, I did not want to go. "WHY?" his voice argued with me. And I responded that it is because there is no reason for us to go up there. We would do the same things we have done the past couple years when we have even gone up to stay for a weekend..... we go to Hobby Lobby, we walk the mall (maybe), we eat a meal in one of the restaurants. And then we come home. I just wasn't in to it this weekend. Yes, we have friends up there, but I'm not wanting to look them up this weekend. Besides, he'd insist on driving.
I did tell hubby what I'd like to do today. Find him a hobby. Find him something to do. Help him find an interest in which he can focus on instead of just sitting in his chair. I got the look of "there is nothing I want to do." UGH. One can only do so much reading unless you are really loving reading. And he does read on occasion. But .... he needs something to stimulate his mind. Ok, that is my opinion. If I'm not working, it's watch TV or read (or, in my case, read, crochet, sew, or work on puzzles or cook). Most days I don't want to go anywhere. But I can spend most of the day in the kitchen baking, and I have puzzles to work on (and am thinking about getting one started this weekend), but puzzles don't interest him. How can one quit living life and trying new things and end their life span doing boring, nothing things? I pray that I never get in that predicament! Remind me of this if I do!
A granddaughter is at the farmer's market again today. I am thinking that to get hubby out of the house, we can take a trip over there and walk around. Ross is there too and hubby has mentioned that he needs to get another journal and I'm sure he hasn't gotten it yet. And if I say we can stop for lunch while we are out - offer him food and he'll go anywhere - he will be eager to go. He will have me to himself for awhile - sorta - and we will be doing something together, albeit I am trying to find something for him to do. Maybe do a road trip up to Anthem to see what stores are left... it is getting more and more empty, or was the last time we did a walk through. And why do I need to be the one to find him something to do? I don't have an answer to report. Some things we have to do even though we don't know why we have to do it.
Colossians 3:23 (NKJV): "and whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men."
That verse had come to mind this morning. No matter what I do today, no matter what I can drag hubby into, I need to do for the glory of God. Who knows, I may receive a blessing while trying to find him something to do - and that always makes it work it!
This book I'm reading, Atomic Habits is pretty good. I'm about half way through it as I can't read when the TV is on. Once I'm through it, I want to skim through again so that I can remember what I've already read. It does inspire me to look at specific things. It's not a religious book, but I am pretty sure it isn't a book my reader son would read either. I love the stories in it because it helps me look at things I can change in my life to make it better. What little things I can do for myself, to help myself. Does that make sense? I am sure I've mentioned this before.... he says in the first part of the book about doing that 1% and then do 2% the next day and so on. Now he doesn't give specifics... maybe read a book you don't normally read for 15 minutes. Or just read a chapter. Then the next day read two chapters. Or straighten up one corner of your room. The next day maybe attack another corner. (I actually did that this week!) Thus far, one of the things I'm getting from the book is not look at the BIG goal and be weary of starting it (i.e. going back to school to get a degree takes one class at a time), but to do one step at a time. The goal of it all is to work at it until you make it a habit. It has been said it takes 21 days to make a habit. If you do the same thing for 21 days, you will find you will do it because it is something ingrained in you.
Sorta like getting up at 4AM each morning M-F to do my quiet time. I've gotten up at 5AM when I worked close to home, but once my office moved further away, I started getting up at 4AM. It has become a sort of 'habit' for me as even without the alarm (which I haven't set in nearly 3 years), I still wake up around 4AM to get up to do my quiet time with God. Of course I've been doing this for about 38 years now. It was hard at first, I admit. But now, I wake up automatically. Sure, I could sleep later now M-F because I work from home - but I chose to continue getting up at 4AM to do my quiet time because I looked at it as my time with God. If I finished early - great. If not, I still had time with Him. And, if you think about it, I used to not be able to write in here every day as I had to do an hour of quiet time, then get dressed, and then head out the door to work. Now I can turn the computer on while still in my jammies (and usually do). And I have time to let my wandering mind fill in these spaces. Before it was here and there cause I'd try to work it in on a break time- which I didn't usually take. So, see, some habits are good to have and to keep. I like rambling in here, and you must like skimming it as you continue to do so. And if not, it helps me sort things out in my mind sometimes.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NKJV): "To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven."
Perhaps this is my season for this blog. Who knows what God has planned for today, for tomorrow? We know not what He has for us... we are to be prepared for whatever happens.
Are you?
Blessings!
