actually, I think we both are. Hubby mentioned yesterday afternoon that he felt like it was time to go home. And, yes, it is. I will need to remind him of this next year, if we go anywhere. Five days and four nights is plenty.... unless you are busy doing things. And we have only read. He doesn't like to walk long distances, he doesn't like to hike... sightseeing hasn't really been our thing so much..... he doesn't like to shop.... but then, staying here and reading has been good. We both take breaks and go outside on the porch and enjoy the breeze and just be quiet. A good storm moved in yesterday and we sat outside and watched it until the lightening felt it was close, then we came inside, turned the recliners around to sit in and look outside the window and watch it. It was really cool.
Soon we will start to pack up everything and load up the car. Our friends came up last night to their trailer they have here, and we will be meeting at a grill they like about five miles from here for lunch, then we will head on down the mountain. It has been a nice week, I will admit, but it's not the same as being home and resting. Of course there he would have had the TV on and we would have also been watching movies every night. I think he is actually in TV withdrawal, which is why he is ready to go home. :) Just kidding. Sitting around and doing nothing is enough to drive either of us nuts. I think back to last year when I got a lot of crocheting done; this year, very little. I have spent my time reading - four books! - and one of them I read twice!
I've been drinking my tart cherry juice while here. I started it a week or so ago. I had read it before, but I'm trying to get my mindset to eating more healthy and doing things that are good for my body. The tart cherry juice helps rid the body of inflammation, which means less joint pain. I figure it can be good for my bones too. I'm really wanting to change our eating habits once we are home. We haven't been too bad while here, but did eat a lot of carbs (chips, chocolate, etc.). But bad enough. Sure haven't gotten my gallon of water down daily like I try at home - but have been drinking at least half a gallon. What has been different is that in making a pot of coffee versus a a cup at a time, and having the time to relax and sit outside and not have to jump on the computer to work, we both have been finishing off the pot each morning - nearly 3 cups a piece! I haven't had the opportunity to relax and enjoy a cup of coffee in a long, long time, but this week it has been nice.
I sit here and look out the big window at the mountains and I am reminded once again of a verse I memorized many, many years ago. We have always struggled financially since I married hubby. When we moved to the city we live in, things did not change; they actually got worse. We were having to pay over $1K a month support to his ex-wife... and that left us nearly nothing to live on. Going to Burger King was a treat at that time. It was a very difficult time financially. There was a scripture I always ran to in my struggles and pain.
Psalm 121:1-2 (NKJV): "I will lift up my eyes to the hills, from whence comes my help? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth."
Many, many times over the years I have quoted this verse in my prayers. In the first house we bought, one of the rooms had long windows that was inches from the floor and from the ceiling. That was my prayer room, where I would go to pray at night. I often took a candle and lit it, setting it on the window seal (it was about 8 inches wide), and spending a length of time there, praying and seeking God for our situation. I always arose knowing that God was in control, that He heard my prayers, and that He would provide for us. And He always did. Those times in front of that window praying, are some of my favorite memories.
So this morning, as I sit here looking at the 'hills' through the large window, I am reminded once again of God's faithfulness in taking care of us. He always takes care of us, but when I ask Him specifically and He answers, I feel in my heart His love and joy in giving me an answer. Great is His Name. Holy is He. He provides all that we need.
Why hasn't He answered my prayers to tenderize hubby's heart to let me retire? Because He can see the big picture and the 'extra' finances are needed. I don't know what is ahead of us, but God does, and even though I know we can get by now, it would be tight. I feel He is wanting to bless us - and in turn, allow us to bless others (which has been nice to be able to do when I hear of a need). Maybe I will be working until the end. I don't know. But I do know that there is No One Else I would rather guide me and help me through life, than the One whom I call Lord. He has provided all that we need, whether it be food, clothes, or even a job. We are fools without His guidance over our lives. I trust Him with my very life, how can I not trust Him to provide for it all. He will release me from my job when it's time. I just need to be patient in my waiting.
Blessings!
