Getting an early start

 because I have a 6AM board meeting in the morning and I know I won't have much time to write in here - if at all.  So figured if I type 'something', you'd at least have something to read, right?  I usually tell you about my day anyway.... just saying.

So my Wednesday started out picking hubby up at AAA as he wanted them to do an oil change.  I'm irritated.  I get the notices from AAA because the account is in my name.  I called AAA this afternoon and asked if his car was ready, and was told yes.  So I asked how much.  $221.84.  Ok, so why so high?  I had reviewed the list of things they suggested needed done - and told them all NO.  He not only asked for an oil change, rotate tires, but also an A/C 'recharge'.  What the heck is that?  He never told me a word about it.  I know, he was 'afraid to'.  He acts at times like I'm the wicked witch of the west because he is afraid to tell me the truth. Anyway - it was done.  I dropped him off and came back to work.  Left him to pay for it. 

But my day did start off better when I met Sue for breakfast at our usual place.  I was able to give her the retirement gifts I had for her, and she gave me a birthday gift bag.  That was fun too!  We are already making plans for December 4th - that's the day we go to the Christmas Idea House - and have done it for about 10 years I'm guessing?  I don't know - but it's always fun to go to. She reminded me to put in PTO for that date - so I did that as soon as I got back home.

I take hubby over to the dentist at 4p Thursday, which, by the time you read this, it will be.  2.5 hours they say, to drill down those front teeth.  $600+.  It's got to be done so no sense in putting it off.  Then, we will have to figure out a trip to Tempe, which I will have to take the entire day off cause hubby can not go down there by himself.  Talked with Sue about it this morning, and it's not a problem.  See what I mean by having a great boss and a good job?  If needed, I can take off work.  Friday I have to drive him down to see Dr. Mark about getting a biopsy of a mole on his forehead.  Bet he uses his walker to go in to the office.  Ya think?

Yeah, I started the above yesterday afternoon, plus a little more which I deleted this morning.  Let's see if I can finish this in a short amount of time. Yes, I still have that board meeting at 6a.  It is just way too early to be that alert!  But then, I was in bed by 8p last night; I couldn't keep my eyes open I was so tired.  

But I did finish God, Where are You? by John Bevere.  Personally, I got a lot out of it, and especially the last two chapters I think it was.  The basics of it is that God has His own timing for things to happen.  God knows when we should leave jobs, and when we should stay.  He knows what the big picture is, what the future holds.  I have no clue.  So, guess I need to get all this retirement wishes out of my mind for the time being, for it apparently is not in His picture for me at this time.  I definitely do not want to 'jump ship' and then cause us financial stress over something.  If I want for His timing to bring it all together, I will not have the stress I will have going 'over His head' and doing what I want.  Make sense?  Sometimes it is just better to wait on God and let Him tell me when it is time.  So the question comes down to, do I trust God as much as I say I do?  I certainly do not want to get ahead of Him, so even though I'd love my time back, I will submit to Him and His timing.  I think I do need to take time off occasionally and do some of my projects; maybe that will help me chill and feel better.  I don't mind working, I really don't.  I couldn't stand not doing anything.  But I think I am getting somewhat burned out with the every day same thing.... and hubby interrupting all the time doesn't help.  If I was in the office, I probably wouldn't even be interested in retiring - just because of the social aspect. I miss that the most.  Seeing people and having different conversations.

So I need to stop focusing on 'me' and my 'wishes', and instead turn my focus on work and how I can do better at it, plus in my 'down' times I can work on some of my projects.  If the company doesn't get the contracts it is trying to get this next year, my working may be a mute point.  Perhaps I need to keep working until we find out about those anyway.  Will see!  

Deuteronomy 32:4 (NKJV):  He is the Rock, His work is perfect; For all His ways are justice, a God of truth and without injustice; righteous and upright is He.

All of God's ways are perfect; His way is perfect, His knowledge is perfect.  God has never made a mistake; He will not mar that record when guiding His children.

Doesn't that statement cause you to 'feel better'?  You can trust God; He doesn't make any mistakes. I know sometimes we wonder about that, don't we, when things don't go the way we think they should if governed by God, but if we step back and look at the big picture, He knows how it will end, and He knows what to do and He knows..... period.  We can trust Him.  We can believe in Him.  We can let God be God, for He is.  And we are not.

And with that - sorry - but I got to get dressed and set up for the board meeting.  May you have an amazing day today!  The week is nearly over - whoo hoo!

Blessings!